I am looking forward to the New Year... I hope to be done with this low calorie phase mid-late January and then I will be happy to be back at full intensity.
The past 2-3 years have been tumultuous and full of huge changes, many of my own choosing, and losses.
In the past I have relied far too much on motivation from the outside - how someone else wanted me to look, how someone else expected me to perform... I was greatly motivated by trying to be 'good enough' for other people.
In the new year I hope to find my inner motivation , and remain fired up about everything, for my own reasons.
I want to train for the look that I desire, and for the sheer enjoyment I get from moving heavy weights. The exaltation that comes from beating my previous lift, the fascination in seeing a new muscle fiber reveal itself.
I want to be a superhero of my own making.
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